when he left me..

When he left me...

3/6/2016

Aashi jain 

 

I remember how it all started? 23/12/15- the date when we saw each other for the first time. He was wearing a denim jeans and a black woolen jacket. His hairs as usual- messed! His height was normal but was too small as compared to his companion. It was a short meeting in that Christmas fate followed by some small eye contacts. We didn’t chat that day. Then a few weeks later there was his friend request on my fb account. I cheerfully accepted it and then we became friends. I remember how polite he used to be during that tenure. I remember each and every conversation of ours. How we used to fight, how we used to make fun of each other and how we used to care for each other. There was a girl to whom he was in love with and desperately wanted her to be his partner. That girl was none other than my childhood friend- amyra. I was happy when they both went in a relationship, happy for both of them. He was someone very close to my heart.  He always supported me whenever I was in trouble.  He made a strong support system of mine. That time I used to think that even if the whole world set against me, there will be he who is going to support me. That time he held such precious position in my heart that I could nearly do anything for him. He just had a simple demand from me and that was to fix his meetings with his beloved. I tried my level best to fulfill his demand. But the irony was that we were friends only because I was fulfilling his demand. Then later on when I was so busy in my own life that I was not fulfilling his condition he conveyed this truth to me. When he told me this I felt like as if someone has kept something heavy on my mind and soul. I felt broken. It was like a storm, a storm which ruined me. A storm which I’ve to overcome daily, a storm who’s impact will always be in my neurons. I don’t know who was to be blamed for this but maybe it was our fate who is responsible for it. But alas! He will never understand this, no matter how hard I try because for him I’m the most selfish person in the world. Now in his life on my place there are many, but in my heart no one else can take his position because he was a true friend to me and he was among the ‘most special person’ panel of my life. I remember how nice I used to feel when he used to say, “I love you dear and I’ll never leave you, my dearest sister!” Ahh! Will never forget him. 

fascination of human beings

                                 Fascination of human beings

An article which tells us how fascinating we are? Our mechanism, body everything. Compared with earth here I present my article on our fascination

Aashi jain
5/31/2016

And then I noticed how seductive he is? Every part of him was so appealing, appealing about how fascinating it is? His eyes, dark and quite, glisten with glamour, his muscles-tough, his hairs- deep brown. His tough bare hands reminds me of ‘four’ from ‘the divergent series.’ And then I heard a bird’s chirp and I shook my head as if throwing his thoughts out of my mind but I was unable to do so. And then a thought came to my mind that how fascinating we are? What makes so fascinating, so attractive that within 10mins. I found myself attracted towards a person who is a complete stranger to me?! Was there any gravitational pull acting between us? Don’t know because I’m not SIR ISSAC NEWTON. Was he known to this? No idea, will ask him in heaven.
Sometimes I wonder that how beautifully God has created us?! Each and every part of our body whether it’s a cell, tissue, organ or an organ system, how systematic everything is, how disciplined! Each has got its own function to perform. Isn’t it fascinating?!
Human beings and their mechanism are just like the Earth. Just as the Earth, rotating 24*7 but never change from inside no matter what destructions it is facing? 
How beautiful the Earth looks from the outer space but as we go closer and closer, deeper and deeper than only we reveal its actual beauty and its actual problems. Similarly when we see people around us they seem to be happy or normal but when we go closer to their souls then only we can flyby their problems.  Just as the earth works continuously, our body also functions continuously, our heart, pumping and supplying blood to our entire body. Our neurons working even when we are asleep and even in my case my hands are also most of the times engaged while sleeping (generally hurting people).

‘Just as in outer space there is a moon which shines with reflecting light of the sun and has got no shine of its own and still appears so beautiful creating a fake image there is a moon inside us also which falsely shine with the grace of the inner sun.’ This moon creates a fake image of itself and as well as us. Throw this dummy out and let your inner grace shine!
As the human beings have hidden potentials and talents the Earth too has its own hidden potentials. As the human beings are so mysterious the same goes on with the Earth. ‘The Bermuda triangles, Amazon, The trenches in the deep oceans which appear calm from above, The Himalayas and The Marine Trench’ are sufficient to explain. Devastatingly  fascinating!

But I still don’t understand why I was so attracted towards the boy sitting next to me in the park? Well, probably the answer to this question is his looks, his appearance that made me so fancy about him. But the answer to the question that “Why are we so fascinating?’’ Is probably what I said, that it is because of the proper functioning of our body as so when we are fit we are so energizing, enthralling, beautiful, sexy, smart, bold etc. etc.  Another thing which makes us fascinating is the capability of ours to hide our pain. No matter how much agony we are facing but still we wish to keep it  secret until it becomes too much for us to handle it at this situation we behave just like the Earth, we cannot share our secrets with anyone but then comes a point at which we ourselves cannot bare it and have to tell someone which in turn makes our dear ones experience as if the tectonic plates below them have undergone a massive collision. 
Moreover our hidden talent  and potential is something  which makes us so keen to know about each other which in turn appears fascinating!
So whenever you feel underestimated by someone or like a useless fellow or when someone ditch you or rejects you for a date or relationship don’t get depressed just read this and think how fascinating you are !
(courtesy to lines written in italics font b/w the single inverted commas goes to- vidhyanth sai kaparadhi varchaswi and dhasa sathyan ).
Signing off
aashi